Thoughts

Things are beginning to come together as other things are beginning to fall apart.

Balance. It's a beautiful thing.

Today, I entered a classroom, actually, a lab. A hovercraft lab. I don't think I will ever be really living outside until school is finished. My mind will be completely dedicated. I don't remember I was this excited about anything in a really long time. I'm working on the electronics portion of the hovercraft. Most of it is done by the group before us. But still, once my group is finished with the electronics, I can move on to other parts of the hovercraft. And, if we are dedicated enough, the hovercraft will hover by the end of the semester. I want that to happen more than anything. I want to see the hovercraft hover by the end of April.

For the last week, I've become buried deep inside my own mind trying to figure out the next step. It has been a rough, rough week. I am now going to put everything I have been thinking of into action. My thought process is nearly complete. My plan is almost set. A catalyst is required. I wonder what that is...

Swimming has become more of a burden than anything as of now. I love swimming. But not here. Not right now. I love the team. I love the people I met because of swimming here. But it's just that I'm not feeling right about somethingIt has been so difficult to pair academics with athletics here. I'm just having a tough time with all of the changes. Sometimes changes are not good when they are too great to handle. And for me, this change was too great to handle. I need to take a step back. That doesn't mean I'm giving up anything. That just means that I need to reassess my goals. My priorities. My dreams.

I just need a moment.

I'm following my gut instincts. I trust that somewhere in the future, the dots will connect. I can't connect them now, but I will be able to when I look back. I'm just in "dot making" mode.

Here's to living life positively and to the fullest [20/365]

Here's to the Crazy Ones.